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Friday, September 14th, 2007
10:26 pm	How many people truly do the dance, every night. A demented tango playing roulette with your own thoughts Where is the escape, just longing to escape. Chainned to the mind that irks. Memories past will always bind, no matter how much the past is put behind. As much as wishing to be free, the memories remain a part Having sculpted and formed the self that we don each day as we leave and hide The circle of things will never end no clear corners no open path, Search the numbers a line take a breather to pass the time Relax your mind and try to unwind as the actions of gods and mice run threats in the sands Minds of mad men souls in the sheer shuffle surrounding sights and sounds shown in the evening sky Questions of an inexplicable nature, Answers and the descriptions, What is this, would you? Live and learn to love it Who's kidding the rollercoaster UP UP UP down down down Crap it was like the most difficult night in the day Very GREY today, Dreary skies and brisk wind Truly want to feel alive? Take a deep breath as the sun comes up Under the grey sky Of A BRISK morning Such little things to remind life The world around does not stay blind Yet can it really be seen Time to become what we've always been There's no good man Seeing the original pallet of work soft and clean in ever dream, colored lights gleaming as remembered and seen Deep into the soul through the gateway to the mind Touch and senses Heightned at the time So devine (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 8th, 2007
4:47 pm	When was the last time I did a prat-fall for laughs? I can't remember and that is sad. (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 4th, 2006
11:21 am	So many people did this I got the urge to walk upstairs open my Itunes and play along too... Wicked If your life was a movie, what would the soundtrack be? So, here's how it works: 1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc). 2. Put it on shuffle. 3. Press Play. 4. For every question, type the song that's playing. 5. When you go to a new question, press the Next button. 7. Don't skip songs. Opening Credits--- "Suggestions" - System of a Down Waking Up--- "Shoots and Ladders" - Korn First Day at School--- "Little Boy your Going to Hell" - Metallica, South Park Movie Breaking up--- "Klavier" - Rammstein Happiness--- "Broken" - Amy Lee + Seether Life's Okay--- "American Pie" - Don McLean Mental Breakdown--- "How do you like me know" - Toby Keith Driving--- "Copasetic" - Local H Flashback--- "Circle" - Slipknot Getting Back Together--- "Left Behind" - Slipknot Wedding--- "Vermillion Pt. 2" - Slipknot Birth of a Child--- "Keep on Dancing" No Doubt Final Battle--- "Champange Supernova" - Oasis Death Scene--- "Play Me" - Korn Funeral Song--- "I'm Gonna Miss Her (the fishing song)" - Brad Paisley End Credits--- "Don't Speak" - No Doubt Some make sense, some not at all, totally worth updating for the first time in months (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 4th, 2006
9:11 pm	What really happens six feet under, in a room of concrete White walls and blue skies shine through clear windows and empty sighes. Brain as I write in trees as they grow don't you know, of course. But back to the evening where stars they were gleaming and reds running rampent gave way into black. Fact, or fiction the friction of vision the unspoken shimmer that tears at the soul it's whole, but a fraction in pieces believe us it's winning and swimming the depths of the darkest of souls it folds and is carried, buried but digs into the deep of the earth, rebirth as it springs to the life of the party. It's hardy knows all the ways to get down so it's found the sounds that we long for, a song for the ages yet without a key, it needs you and me stick to it like glue write the music to give this song key to take flight, a kite as it dances in the distance the colors are with us on the painted blue skies that shine through clear windows painting white walls... fill our sighs (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 24th, 2005
11:50 pm	Its the time of the season for ... So many words, so many words i'd like to give out to people, alas it is the season for giving As i sit back in my chair and review the year in my mind I envision what the next year can have in tow, joyful and sorrowful good and bad, not to mention the ugly. *hand* *eyes* *eyes* *hand* *eyes* *hand* *eyes* *hand* *eyes* *hand* *eyes* *hand* *eyes* *hand* I live my life six feet under and surrounded by concrete, yet this is where I am most comfortable it is home at least for another year. I've been working on my writing once again, if anything good slips out of my insanity i'm looking at sending it somewhere who knows i never enjoy the holidays and this year it is just more of the same so... eh not even worth it its 1130 you know what that means, I just finished wrapping gifts. Managed to pull it together just before Christmas And thats another thing It Christmas, Its Merry Freggin Christmas Not "holiday", not "december celebration" If we've gotten so uptight as a culture that we cant say christmas for the majority and then its about time to hire one man to go around and any time someone complains that Merry Christmas infringes on their rights and believes he takes a candy cane beats them until the stupidity is gone and they can no longer produce children to carry on any of these jeans. Monochromatic cone shaped holiday display- yeah that has a happy ring to it ok thats done now Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Down Periscope (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 9th, 2005
11:41 am	The end of the beginning....woah that was deep It's been awhile huh i musta been busy, Last day of classes,  i'm waiting to head up to my last Calculus class ever. Gracias Jesus,  anyways  so who knows whats going on i'm sure some do, i dont have christmas shopping done yet, another round of textbooks comin up, al's disease has struck again i'm tired (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 1st, 2005
7:05 pm	wow i'm a little messed up Disorder Rating Paranoid Personality Disorder: Very High Schizoid Personality Disorder: High Schizotypal Personality Disorder: Very High Antisocial Personality Disorder: High Borderline Personality Disorder: Moderate Histrionic Personality Disorder: Moderate Narcissistic Personality Disorder: Very High Avoidant Personality Disorder: High Dependent Personality Disorder: High Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder: High -- Take the Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Info -- (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 28th, 2005
11:54 pm	1) Put your music-listening device on random and make a numbered list of the first 10 songs played. 2) Answer the questions below based on those songs. 1. Ego Brain - System of A Down 2. The Unforgiven 2 - Metallica 3. Whiskey Girl - Toby Keith 4. Music Of The Night - Andrew Lloyd Weber 5. Black and White - Static- X 6. Schwarzalbenheim - Therion 7. Dr. Steven - Stephen Lynch 8. American Soldier - Toby Keith 9. Little Spanish Flea - Herb Alpert + The Tijuana Brass Band 10. Rooster - Alice in Chains 1) When was the first time you remember hearing song 3? uh place, at ....time 2) Briefly describe the music video you'd create for 10. Alice in chains, something mellow, lots of blue and black 3) Describe the plot of a song fic for 7. Lynch serving up tastful humor with funny words that make you think dirty words are coming 4) 8 would be the theme song for which fictional/real-person character? G.I Joe 5) What memory do you most associate with 2 and why? Alot of forgotten nights 6) Have you ever seen the artist who performed 1 in concert? If so, how was it? No but lord if i didnt try 7) Close your eyes and listen carefully to 9. Write down three adjectives that describe it. Upbeat, brassy, spanish 8) What makes 4 and 5 different? What do they have in common? Ones Classical and from a musical, the other is static x....it dont get much more different 9) If 6 was part of a montage or "song-over" for a TV show or a movie, what action would be happening onscreen? A battle scene of somekind, like helmsdeep 10) Pick out the song that gives you the strongest feeling, positive or negative, and explain why it affects you that way. i honestly dont know on this one... Current Mood: definitely better than a paper Current Music: Conezone (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 27th, 2005
7:28 pm	Retard Fight!! Seriously, who fights with webcomics. now i have minimal skills and i'm lazy so i totally copy pasted outta carters comics. Notice hair has consumed my face, and drews in the gray tshirt but anyways i got nothin Current Music: nobody-Skindred (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 11th, 2005
11:41 am	Bored Once again i'm sitting here before class, hopefully the imac doesnt shit itself again.... i really have nothing good to say, i dont want to go to my concert tonight, or sunday the browns are playin sunday so thats good new sunday night verses the steelers. paintball saturday morning should be slightly amusing har har oye oye oye i've been wearing my limerag, cuz i'm sweet, and i come in lime. woke up at 730 today, and totally made it to class at 815, which is a real feat of amazment, considering i left at around 745-750 and then picked up drews and beat all the traffic got run errands today, stupid errands i dont wanna have a concert. i'm done Current Music: price is right - commuter lounge sounds (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 7th, 2005
12:03 pm	F@#$ you IMAC so i had 45 minutes of rant and glorious posting in here, i had lyrics, i had punctuation, i had mentioning of france on fire, it was pure glory, and then an ad froze the mac and i have class so in short, i hate you imac i'll redo it later Current Mood: pissed off (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
9:43 am	So here i sit Yeah so i figure i havent updated in awhile, so instead of looking over my calc homework i'll just type for a little bit. anyways so drews and i are going to get some epoxy after classes today, and i'm gonna try epoxy on those holes, then paint them, then shoot the living daylights outta it to see how it holds up. this should be fun. and well la la la i'm stuff and things http://www.alwayslazy.com/d/20011117.html, i always wake up lazy has returnned and has new strips, there the link to the first one ever so people can catch up the mob rules, which akwardly actually is a song i love lamp nothing worth typing Current Music: Apple PIe chewing gum (Comment on this)
Monday, October 17th, 2005
9:46 am	And then there was tank ok so this weekend was glorious, it had its ups and downs, friday was enjoyable, watching some mad comedies, yeah i know its sweet, saturday there was tank, it began with an idea, which we spent hours thinking of, and the main problem, if we were going to be able to tow it. which i have figured out. so let the tanking begin, an aero star a buick and a dream to haul the ultimate tanking experience down to skirmish, i wont be able to sleep until july, i mean its just that exciting its like were gonna have a TANK, SWEET and i can keep the cost about the same as everyone paid last year cuz i'm just that good at accounting, so anyways i have to go to spanish soon *laughs* *curses under breath* yeah thats about it. so tank to everyone later tank tank tank tank tank tank tank tank TANKTANKTANK -yeah you like it Current Mood: Tank Current Music: Tank (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 10th, 2005
2:34 am	so once again here i am always to be So here it is another late night and i have nothing to do, which is infact a lie. i could do plenty of things but as such lack any motivation or will to do them, so in truth i have things i could do, nothing interesting, but instead i'd rather sit here and stare blankly either at the screen infront of me or at the wall. i find myself trapped in the fall, this is the time of year when i used to relish in outdoor activities but that stage of my life has long since past i miss it and i dont i have a much better life over all now but i used to be health, i could run walk jump breath and not have any trouble, plus i had muscles and actually was quite fearsome at one point, now i'm imfamous for falling over. somewhere something went arye. so it may be late but i have no desire to sleep, none its as though i've returned to my natural nocturnal state mmmm nighttime, but really anyways trapped in the fall, i'm definitely getting out once he snow hits i'm gonna be on the slopes, i'm thinkin i may even try to get out to vermont this year, its not like i have the money but i suppose i could scrap together enough for gas and lift passes then just sleep in my car and eat snow. it would be totally worth it to conquer a mountain. i've also gotta find another hangout, cuz i live in mine, for you all coming here might seem like an escape, techniqually for me its still a prison, i totally just broke half the arm of this chair, anyways as i was saying i feel restless, the sameway i felt last year i thought college would make it better but as it turns out until i get the cash to get outta here there is no way that i can fix this feeling of prisonment, its bad enough that i already work a deskjob, if it didnt give me such a good connection to get a job once i was outta college i'd be outta there tomorrow i know sears would take me back less pressure, dont have to think, dont have to be responsible to the IRS oh how i dread the responsibility. so to calm myself i sit here and watch the flame of a fire dart with the ins and outs of my breath, the fire relax's me it may seem weird but it could be worse but hey those days are behind me. i do love a good post just complainning in some random last attempt to force my thoughts outta my mind in one last stitch effort to sort them into something that can be at least understood in an attempt to find some answers to myself when i know they wont come to me. i shouldnt feel like this, i have everything in front of me that i need to be happy yet for some reason i get everything all messed up and then sit here every night telling myself that i need to do better i need to do more, and yet i lost anything i used to get outta the little things, i can't sit down with a hobby anymore, if i'm not working at a certain goal or doing something that has a greater purpose i can't enjoy it, so instead i do nothing i sit here behind the computer and stare at the concrete walls all around me and let my mind run wild with whatever it wants, which is very dangerous for one of the scarist things to do is to look inside your own head for a couple hours and realize what really goes on up there. try it sometime. Not even writing works all that good anymore, it can relax me but its not the same i used to write and i would find something i'd be able to take away from it and go back to being me, yesterday i wrote 5 pages and didnt even scratch the surface i think the pressure might be getting to me i set myself out for such high goals by trying to get the 3.9 gpa and all and i'm finding it very difficult to learn. I need to find a hangout, so we can all go get away, in reality we need to find someone with a hottube that we can crash always because hottubs are sweet. It's 335 for a season pass, i dont know if its worth it... you ever just think to yourself what was going through my head, now i've begun to ramble but hey could be worse... i say could be worse alot but at somepoint you have to reach the no there is no worse stage its the only way to understand how good things are. i'm gonna save up money, i want to get the laser eye surgery cuz i'm tired of being blind always. i just walked around the whole basement why you ask because i hadnt moved in awhile I have nothing to do aside from writing this to bother staying awake, but i have nothing too do that would require me to really wake up early tomorrow so i dont need to sleep. i like this robe, its comfortable and i plan on wearing it alot. just wait til i'm dorming next year i'll prolly never take it off. There is a stapler on the floor, yet i dont know how it got there....how i wonder. thats all for now Current Mood: restless Current Music: Ohne Dich - Rammstein (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 8th, 2005
10:20 pm	Now tell me thats not the freakist thing ever, that insence stick is completely burnned and the ash has stayed in that shape. i still have it so people can see it in person, i figure it will stay for awhile. (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
8:00 pm	Al's Disease returns with a vengence So.. how about an update. Yesterday was revelry, congrats to lancaster on being victorious. Al's disease came back in full fashion, felt really bad all day by the time i got home and went to bed i had what i think was most likely a fever, a migrane, and to top it all off chills/aches. woot that was fun, i woke up at 3 am and wandered around my house drinking water using the help of gravity to keep my food down. spent the morning removing and replanting shrubs then watched football whilst nursing the migrane all in all i'm feeling about how i'll be feeling for quite some time. bills lost but hey the browns didnt lose, they didnt have a game but still they didnt lose so it could be worse. i have an exam tomorrow that i have failed to prepare for at all in any way shape or form so this could be a little difficult. oh what else to go in here. got my credit card bill yesterday but on the good side i also got my town band check yesterday so that works out and now i can send a paycheck off to knock the balance off the computer bill down a little bit which is always a helpful thing to do. now theres a trojan goin around aim, which means woot for nortons for pickin it up as soon as it was sent thats how sweet it is. yeah i really have nothing else better to say so this is over Current Mood: Outta Body Experience Current Music: family guy (Comment on this)
Friday, September 30th, 2005
9:46 am	Hey i finally did the friends thing, now to make it better So here i am its 945 and i'm sitting at a crappy apple computer because i was so lazy i didnt bring my laptop and now i'm just sitting here like blah blah blah, dave is furisly molesting the keyboard with his fingers in an attempt to finish an english something or other. yeah and apparently i need a haircut and i'm gonna finally go get new glasses tonight should be good times, i also got another beanie so the look is complete, jeans flannel beanie, total grunge 90s yes thats right i said it what what?!?!? ok so i might be a little tired but anyways i figured i'd pop in an update before i went off to spanish. So i went to update alsbasement last night when i realize that no one really looks at it much and therefore i almost dont want to bother updating it, so i'll put pics up somewhere else either in a yahoopictures or in here whatever not like i have that many anyways. so i had a spanish presentation turns out one of the pictures i used happened to be in FRENCH, once again france makes me angry.....*shakes fist*, :-D. just that kinda day i guess, I've been obsessed with stronghold crusader for the last couple days, and you should be too. go to ebay. buy it for like 5-15 dollars and play it and love it it's just that cool.in reality i'm just seeing how muuch longer i can type before i give in and head up to spanish for the biggest waste of an hour i've ever dealt with. you ever sit and watch presentations from kids who dont know a thing about the language dont care and have a teacher who has a heavy polish accent and therefore is not understandable at all. yeah not good times so i guess i'm gonna get going for a bit everyone enjoy their days Current Mood: busy Current Music: Sleep now in the Fire (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 28th, 2005
11:34 am	yes, of course i'm studying 1.One of your scars, how did you get it? the one on my foot, stepped on a nail, one on my back, funny story about a nail, and this crazy sawmill accident 2. What is on the walls in your room? white paint.....ooooooo,....aaaaa 3. What does your cell phone look like? phoney, mmmm phoney 4. What music do you like to listen to? classic rock metal country 5. Do you know what time you were born? 7:27pm just intime for jeopardy 6. What do you want more than anything right now? to not have a calc test in 45 minutes 7. What do you miss at times? i miss... 8. What is your most prized possession? gold cross 9. What is your favorite smell? have you ever smelt the crisp air on a winters morn... 10. Do you get claustrophobic? sometimes 11. If you died tomorrow...? well i'm not sure, depends on whose got tomorrow in the pool 12. Who was the last person to make you cry? stuff 13. Do you chew the straw? what straw? 14. What kind of hair do you like on the opposite sex? it doesnt really matter 15. Where can you see yourself proposing? on one knee 17. What are your 5 favorite movies? (in no particular order...) 1. Baseketball 2. Down Periscope 3. insert 4. movie 5. here 18. What is good and what is evil? good and evil are double standards used by politicians to win elections 19. Who is the last person you made mad? me 20. Do you speak a different language? yeah sure 21. What was the first gift someone of the opposite sex ever gave you? i dont remember 22. Where do you keep your CD's? in a thing, then some in another thing 23. Favorite Band(s)? far to many to name 24. What kind of books do you like to read? mostly what i take once my dad is done with them 25. Favorite dessert: stuff 26. How do you like your coffee? as black as the deepest darkest reach of space where there is no light 27. What is your favorite animal? otters 28. Would you fall in love, knowing that the person is leaving? you can't control emotionz 29. What is the best way to tell someone how much they mean to you? alot of times i use poetry but really you have to just say it. 30. Do you believe Livejournal is the Devil in disguise? not surem but i'll hire a control board and investagate 31. Blondes, Redheads, or Brunettes? yes 32. What is the one number you call often? speeddial 4 33. What annoys you most? african americans who thing i owe them something, get over it *shakes fist* Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: my pretending to study (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 22nd, 2005
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Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
9:49 am	i dunno i dont really know whats goin on, got let outta class early. gotta go to work at some point after comp sci. hopefully i'll have 1 job to do and i can go home and sleep because hey sleeping is always good times. yeah i just enjoy having a nap cuz it appears i'm not sleeping sound at night, making me very tired throughout the day. yep thats fun.... so anyways i still got nothin, i'll write something later. Current Music: metallica- turn the page (Comment on this)